“We’ll pick you up!”

Interdependence, 50″x40″

On Wednesday, I arranged to pick up a rental car to have at my disposal for Thursday. My husband needed the car for the day for an appointment. Spending a few hours picking up and dropping off a rental car would be a bit of a pain, but having the car all day Thursday was going to make a busy, full day possible. I went with the flow. I was picked up by a very friendly driver, I’ll call him George, on a gorgeous and sunny afternoon. We chatted all the way to the car rental location. Turns out he has two brothers and one sister and I have one brother and two sisters. We discussed differences in siblings as it related to my two daughters and George’s own relationship with his brother. George was the debate club type while his brother was very athletic. My girls are currently in a jump roping camp together which highlights some of the personality differences between them. Despite their differing skills they enjoy the camp and don’t seem competitive with each other which is very nice. It’s fascinating to watch as they develop in their own way.

We also talked about baseball, being fit, and other things. It was very pleasant- we were laughing and smiling. Had I been in a very different mood (or brought a different energy) I may have been more quiet, internally focused, perhaps even assumed we had nothing in common or not bothered to find out as I waited to get my rental car. Instead I gained a connecting experience, had a great conversation, and went about my day feeling positive.

Thursday morning I woke up with an action plan. My kids had a field trip in 90 minutes and they had to be on the bus and ready to go. My Sweetie was already out for the day. I roused my kids and let them know I was driving to the store for about 25 minutes to get a few essentials for their lunches while they woke up. They were cool. Everything was going according to plan, groceries were purchased, I was feeling good, and I was about to head home looking forward to my day. After fumbling around and retracing my steps I discovered I locked the keys to the rental car in the car! Doh!!! Not today… Apparently yes today. What was I going to do? I even left my cell phone at home. I have to remember to say, “How fascinating,” next time something like this happens as a gentle reminder to put it in perspective. I didn’t have the number for my roadside service and my thinking was giving way to my feelings of worry for my kids, guilt over leaving them alone for a short trip that looked like it would be much longer than expected, then more guilt about the kids most likely missing their field trip because I wouldn’t be able to get them there in time due to my error. I tried to prepare for this busy day and I botched it big time! Breathe…  Easier said than done sometimes.

Two workers at my local grocery store were really fantastic as they generously went out of their way to guide and assist me as I was figuring out what to do. I’ll call them Todd and Susan. My thinking wasn’t the clearest. It was still early, I had no tea or anything, and I was getting emotionally flooded. Todd put me on the phone with AAA but since I was not a member they could not help me. I couldn’t wait for a tow truck as I needed to get home right away. I could call the police but I was in Oakland. Cops don’t come quickly unless shots are fired. My “dilemma”, while a big deal to me and my kids, was not really an emergency. I decided to grab one bag of fruit for my kids’ lunches and then literally run home over the big hill. Then maybe we could take a cab to camp and I could figure out the car situation later… with my phone. What was possible? Susan walked out with me to the parking lot when she learned what I was going to do. Breathe… Susan reminded me 🙂 She asked which car was mine and called her roadside assist service and then she drove me home over the hill with her car. I was so thankful!!! I greeted and reassured my kids and told them about what happened. They continued to get ready as I tried to arrange for a cab. The first place hung up automatically. The second had no cars available. I was just about to call the next one when Todd called me from the store to inform me that Susan now had my keys from her road side assist call. I ran back to the store, got the rental car, picked up my kids with fresh fruit in their recently packed lunches, and we made it in time for the bus with time to spare! The kids had an awesome field trip 🙂 I was a bit worked up over that roller coaster but I was very happy and cosmically thankful for how it all worked out.

Community is all around us. If we all reach out and step up to one another openly with curiosity and goodwill, and take time to talk to the “strangers” (yes it IS ok to talk to strangers) rather than choosing to isolate ourselves due to fear, inconvenience and/or disinterest of the unknown- we might just get somewhere really nice together. It is time to be appreciative of the abundance right around me and to contribute it forward as best I can! As much as we try to be self sufficient and independent we really do rely on each other. Here’s to respect and consideration of our communal and global interdependence!

Thank you for the ride 🙂 Thank you for your kindness and your generosity of spirit!

I’ve been thinking about global interdependence a lot lately and how the energy we each bring forth has a direct impact on the energy of those around us- whether we realize it or not. After my morning experience I went to my studio to decompress and reflect. I was ready to begin a new painting journey. My heart was full of gratitude for just how wonderful and supportive we can all be towards each other.  This piece is the beginning of my visual meditation about acknowledging our joyful interdependence. We’ll see where it goes from here.

Just wanted to add that on Friday I dropped off my rental car and experienced yet another wonderful conversation with Ed while he drove me home. I actually have met Ed before during earlier car rental experiences with previous wonderful conversations. Just another reminder about how rich and full this world is and how we can be touched and nourished from the most unexpected moments.

With appreciation,

Kammy

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Interwoven Rhythm and Melody

Interwoven Rhythm and Melody, 50″x40″

I started a painting, Interwoven Melody and Rhythm, several months ago while I simultaneously taught myself to play a song on the piano via youtube. There is an earlier version of this painting here. I loved being able to visually connect my new musical skills and the feelings they evoked into my painting practice. Music is a very important creative, emotional, and physical source to me. It moves and inspires me. I usually listen to music when I create. By learning how to make music I felt my brain was changing and forming new pathways and connections which helped foster new ideas in me. Right after learning one song I had so many new thoughts and ideas about what I wanted to do and what I was interested in. My months filled up with new things I wanted to pursue and I am still feeling the flow several months later. If anything I am trying to figure out how to fit it all. Could it be that learning how to play one song on the piano opened up new pathways for me to gain momentum in other aspects of my life?

I did a google search on “music and science” after my painting was complete and stumbled upon  an awesome documentary called, The Music Instinct: Science and Song, with many talented musicians like Bobby McFerrin and Yo Yo Ma. I highly recommend watching it! The film investigates how music affects people’s brains and how it can be used for healing and communal connection. The film strongly resonates for me as I see parallel ways that painting, making, and experiencing art can be equally therapeutic.

Thanks for stopping by,

Kammy

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Cycles and Oscillations…

Oh, 16″x20″

I wonder why it is so hard to make substantial changes in my life that stick. I start something positive, like new creative ideas, business ideas, excercise routines, reading/research, eating habits, and then my inner balance shifts for reasons both inside and outside my control. Inevitably I falter and need to take time to pick up or collect all of my intentions once again.

Instead of seeing the negative, “Oh, no I’ve dropped several of my intentions!” I try and look at the positive, “Everything is all jumbled up. Now is a great opportunity to assess and reconfigure how I am living my life and the choices I make.”  It’s good to remind myself that many things come in waves and cycles. Spring shifts to summer which shifts to fall which shifts to winter… and then it’s spring again- albeit one year later. We don’t ever go back to a time that has past. Circumstances may seem familiar as we make our way but it is (we are) never the same. We move along multiple, continuous cork-screw patterns that ebb and flow through the days, weeks, seasons, and years. Each time we make our way around a “loop” we have the ability to take what we have learned thus far and grow in new directions. It’s a process that’s as long as existence.

I have a dream that is slowly revealing itself. It comes in fits and spurts. Each bit of it sheds new light on that which I couldn’t see clearly before. They can surround me like a lobbing hailstorm- obscuring my view. Or they can be far off like planets going unnoticed in the night sky. Each has it’s own time and form…

So how do I connect these hailstorms with those distant planets in my life? I believe the first step is to observe and take notice.

My planets: I have a dream to be involved in a community art space that fosters healing through creativity. This community would seek to share their creative passions in the form of diverse classes or workshops or gatherings. There would be private practice and communal practice opportunities. I believe that making art is synonymous with healing oneself and making communal art leads to communal healing. Wouldn’t that be great! By engaging our own creativity and vision, both independently and collectively, we harness the power to change not just our lives but the lives of those around us for the better. Villages form and from everything I’ve heard it always takes a village. Art is often assumed to be for those who have talent or for those who make things that appeal to others. This view in my mind cheapens the role of art in our society and keeps people from discovering art’s greater purpose: art as the practice of self healing.

My hailstorm: Can I find a place/venue to experiment with different gatherings or classes? Where do I meet like minded people and how do I prioritize developing relationships with the limited time I have? What service am I offering? I need to keep making my own art. I need to nurture my existing relationships and priorities. Swimming lessons. Fixing the window. Mail that check. Etc…

Thanks for spending time with me as I brainstorm. If you have similar dreams and ideas let me know 🙂

Kammy

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My Mobile Canvas: 5 (Photopainting)

Painting digitally on photos has recently become a fun past time of mine. I’ll start with a photo that I’ve taken with my phone and layer on top of it with my Sketch and Draw App. I don’t have super fancy tools or software yet but it is very fun!!! I love taking pictures and some photos compel me to play with them more. The freedom to bust out with color wherever I happen to be with no preparation is awesome! Just me, my phone and the moment. I find it fitting that I have to put it in airplane mode (to block ads) to functionally use my phone as a canvas and make whatever space around me my studio.


Radiate

Radiance, photopainting

Radiance (above) was a two part process. On vacation I stole away half an hour from my family to capture the only sunset I was able to witness while away. I am very thankful for that time. The clouds and sun creating quite the show while waves and roosters serenaded the sun goodnight and I soaked in the last of its light and warmth for the day. Back home it was time to catch up with the world and the life I put on hold. My studio remained empty due to higher priorities and I grew hungry to be there, to reconnect.  One night it was too late for studio but I had some time and chose my mobile canvas to play with. It doesn’t quite fill the same need as painting at my studio but it does keep me centered and creative while I wait patiently for my daily priorities to shift.

Thoughts and Dreams

Thoughts and Dreams, photopainting

Each of these pieces have stories and moments behind them. Thoughts and Dreams (above) originated from me creating order and harmony in my home. Eliminating clutter and creating homes for things and keeping them there. Making these new household habits a design project makes it more fun and fulfilling. I noticed how I enjoyed the visual play between these two random sculptures. One from my childhood home and the other a leftover bisque figure from my daughter’s birthday party last year. So it is both old and new, past and future with thoughts and dreams (one’s awareness) holding them together.

Perception, photopainting

Perception (above). A fleeting moment shared with my daughter at a restaurant. She seemed to be beaming from the inside out! My visual reality of the moment didn’t do what I felt inside justice. I wanted to transform the photo to expose a different part of the energy spectrum than what my eyes could see.  This piece is a play on how we perceive and interpret our own experiences and how reality really is subjective.

Found HeART, photopainting

Found HeART (above) is my first ever photopainting 🙂 I was cleaning and noticed my fabric glue had spilled and dried on top of my sewing cart. This was the shape it was in. The squeezy, shiny heart-shaped blob was fascinating to me. Being close to Valentines Day I set forth to make a picture for my Love while also playing with my sketch app in a new way. This is what I made. Beyond this image the HeART still has a life of its own. We now take turns hiding it around the house. Leaving it for someone else to unexpectedly discover it.

Have a wonderful day!

Kammy

More from My Mobile Canvas: Intro12, 3 & 4

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Still painting :)

Just letting you know- I am not completely stuck in my mobile canvas… I am painting and I’m also learning how to play the piano. I’ve found Paganful’s Youtube lessons to be very helpful. My first song is, Mad World, from the movie Donnie Darko. Learning how to play the piano is an incredible experience. So much so that it is inspiring my current painting, Interwoven, which is shown below. This is a sneak peek of where it is right now. More evolution to come…

Interwoven, 50"x40"

Hibernate is another piece I completed this winter while in my own state of “hibernation” and reflection. The pace of life does not let up. Time keeps marching and if we allow it to we can let it swallow us up within its unchanging momentum. Filling each moment with appointments, checklists and ever more things to do. What is the meaning of it? Does a stacked google calendar indicate personal success and fulfillment? Is being busy supporting the lives we want? Is it effectively getting us to where we want to be? Or is it just hiding the fact that time is slipping away?

I have fond, childhood memories of snow arriving with its muffled silence and chilling stillness. During these “storms” everything would stop and the world around me glistened. Even time itself seemed to pause, briefly at least, until the plows came through the town. Too soon the world was in motion again. I miss those quiet pauses that mother nature gave me. A chance to contemplate, to play, to create, and to reacquaint myself with me. Don’t wait for the snow. It may not come.

Hibernate, 20"x16"

Instead, make it!!!

Thank you for reading.

Kammy

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My Mobile Canvas: 4

Marsh Grass

Dance

Butterfly

Flight

Holding On

Productive Patience

Hillside

 

More from My Mobile Canvas: Intro, 1, 2, & 3

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My Mobile Canvas: 3

Now I’m starting to get into my new tools.

Relish

Where to?

Found HeART

Perceived Reality

More from My Mobile Canvas: Intro, 1, 2

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